Friday, May 20, 2016

One Goal Accomplished; But Mission Continues....

My Father wants me to become an IAS. Although he is pleased from my success in state civil services examination but, I think, he is not fully satisfied with me. His expectations are soaring high and the onus have now come on me. So in other words, I have achieved a goal but my mission continues.
I am now 30 years old, approximately lived half of my life. I have no experience in those adventures which any teenagers commonly have in their teenage, now a days. Earlier I have postponed my marriage because of this civils preparation in 2013. But now, I am thinking of getting married first and after that continue my preparation for UPSC. That is why, I am looking for a suitable girl, these days, to marry. A girl, which can match with my expectations. But I think, searching for a suitable girl, is more tedious and cumbersome process than preparing for civil services exam and getting selected in it. I don't know how to search for girls for marrying so I have given this duty to my father and grandmother (although I am involved in this process too). I am pretty sure they would search a suitable girl for me.
At this stage of my life, I am thinking of a very serious question.....
Would I be able to perform well in this job? 
For whom I am aspiring to be successful in this field? Is it me or my father or just for mere showing to our society that I am a bureaucrat?
Meanwhile, I came across some thoughtful lines over my dilemma...

"सफलता अपने लिए या लोगों को दिखाने के लिए ! असफलता से खुद प्रभावित या इस चिंता से प्रभावित कि लोग क्या कहेंगे ? एक तरह की कश्मकश में इस तरह उलझ गए हैं कि जीवन का सार एक परीक्षा तक समेट दिया। पता नहीं कि ये परिणाम का असर है या स्वतः विकसित सोच  का , कि जीवन का मूल्याङ्कन केवल परीक्षा में सफलता पाने से ही हो पायेगा या जीवन को इससे आगे और बढ़ के भी देखना शुरू किया जाए, अपने बारे में निर्णय खुद को केंद्र में रख कर लिए जाएँ या लोगों की सोच व् दृष्टि को स्थान दिया जाए , खुश होने के लिए एक बहाने तक सीमित हों या हर छोटी सी चीज़ में खुश होने का अवसर ढूंढा जाए l अभी तक का अनुभव एक सही और सटीक राह पर ले जाएगा ऐसा विश्वास है l"

Jitendra Gupta