When I was studying in my graduation, I came across a quote written by a famous philosopher,
"Past is the cause of present and present will be the cause of future. All these are interlinked with each other."
and I was considering this quote very true, and has applied many times, whenever something unusual happened in my personal life. It was the result of this quote that, often, I blame my past, my decision of doing B.Pharm. instead of preparing for PMT (Pre Medical Test). Even today, I think many times that I should have been prepared for the PMT, after my intermediates. I felt guilty for a long time because the decision of doing B.Pharm. was wrong in my attitude, which has spoiled my bright future.
If I had prepared for PMT after my intermediate, then the present canvas of my life would be something different. I am not saying that I have become totally useless by doing B.Pharm, but the envy of a doctor has been occupied a permanent place in my heart, and it has glued in my mind as any unfulfilled wish. For a long time, I has constantly blaming myself totally for it. In addition to this, I also question myself, 'is it right to blame our past for the cause of present?' I was continuously searching for it's answer.
As presently, I am reading the newest autobiographical novel, 'Aleph' by one of my favourite author, Paulo Coelho. I has read his many novels, in which 'The Alchemist' is my favourite one. While reading this novel yesterday, I got the answer of one of my question, 'is it right to blame our past for the cause of present?'
Mr. Coelho has a different attitude over this question. According to Mr. Coelho-
"We learn in the past, but we are not the result of that. We suffered in the past, loved in the past, cried and laughed in the past, but that is of no use to present. The present has it's challenges, it's good and bad side. We can neither blame nor be grateful to the past for what is happening now. Each new experience has nothing to do with past experience, it's always new."
In a different place in this novel, he has written,
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"They lie in what you call the "past" and await a decision to be made in what you call the "future". They clog your mind and slow you down, and won't let you understand the present"
I found his thoughts very useful and very inspiring as it has changed my way of thinking. I don't think now, I have committed any mistake by doing B.Pharm.....